life is weird, i want to go back to budapest, i should be in minnesota by now, i want to see old friends more than him
dragline
did a fuckin thing
things learned:
i get better grades writing poetry over prose
when i think something sucks, i get high grades, when i think it’s good, it actually sucks (subjectively)
one year to go
stalling on life, freaking out about time, freaking out about moving to america, freaking out about uni results coming in tomorrow, freaking out about being 25 surrounded by other 25 year olds with their shit together, freaking out about how still my life has become since I quit travelling and working in hostels, but still stupid in love with some midwestern boy
reason i need to move to the med, one week difference in the state of my psoriasis
back in the uk for a while, assignments due, exam to do, weird that I’m finishing a year of university in a positive way having not missed any essay deadlines, should’ve waited til 24 in the first place and save myself the 3 yrs of failure debt
got a long list of crap to get done before my visa interview gets booked but left minnesota on a really good note with long conversations about our future together, still madly in love with my boy
life in minnesota in the middle of april, barefoot in knee high snow
our fiancé visa petition has been accepted and now on to the secondary fun period of waiting to be able to book a medical and interview at the embassy but holy crap this is actually happening I’m gonna move to minne and be with my minne boy without interruption hopefully forever
life of a dog walker, -5°c 35mph winds
spent the past 5 days trying to write a short story about a girl that wants to climb a tree, got an extension for the deadline, finally finished it and now i know everything about black spruces
now feeling compelled to go climb a tree but the weather is dirt
2017
the year i started wearing glasses, went to oslo, met & lived with b’s aunt n uncle, got engaged, decided to start paperwork to move to america, spent 6 months in minnesota, started up my degree again, finally reunited with uni friends for a weekend, kept falling harder and harder in love, dealt with a lot of stress, and felt restless as hell trying to get life in order
2018
stop being restless
159//160//11/02/17,11/03/17
5am snaps to B
156/157/158 - minnesota/sky/england
end of october//first day of novemberin some ways it’s nice to be back with my mum but it hasn’t hit me yet that it’ll be months until I see b again and move permanently to MN
155//10/26/17
the best boy
154//10/25/17